A Hard and Sad Week

For all those who do not know yet I lost the baby this past week. I thought that I was 12 weeks along and when they did my ultrasound on Tuesday there was no heartbeat. The doctor originally thought that I was about 12 weeks also. I had a D & C on Thursday and it went well except the Dcotor found that the baby and my uterus were 4 weeks further along than we thought making me16 weeks. I had a hard time coming out of the anethesia and was quite sick to my stomach. I also lost a lot of blood and so I was very tired and slept a lot. I am doing much better now physically and emotionally it is up and down. I am having all the post partum issues just without the joy of holding a baby.

The doctor was unable to determine the gender of the baby but we named the baby Ambrose. It was a name we were thinking of for this baby and my D & C was on the December 8 th which has St. Ambrose as the saint of the day. It seemed very appropriate. Ambrose means "immortal" which our little saint in heaven is now. I am happy that I was able to keep an ultrsound picture of the baby.

The kids are sad too and have been a big help. My Nate misses the baby so much and keeps praying that God send us a new baby very soon. He was very excited to have a new baby coming and now he is sad. Kolbe has also been sad and has been crying on and off. They understand but they are helping mom and coping well.

God is good and has sent us wonderful friends through our church and homeschooling group. They have been such a help and support with prayers, meals, rides, babysitting, and more.. I love you all and am grateful for all of your help. Our family and friends in Michigan and Jen and John here, have been wonderful too though I wish they were all closer. They have been there in thoughts and prayers. Also the women of the Catholic Mom Community and the 4 Real Learning Forum have been such a support sharing their stories and their love and prayers. Thank you all.