Hey Everyone - I have
been so busy
that I have not bee
n to good about posting
regularly.
Life here is pretty hectic at the moment. We have been very busy with homeschooling. I a
m teaching 5 kids
this year so my days
are full not to mention
working for home o
n top of it all. At
the end of a day I am
spent to
say t
he least. Mike is still looking for work which is stressful. The economy
here is horrible and has bee
n ranked as the w
orst place in the US to find a job. It is
causing lots
of stress around here
but we are holding up. I am waiting for my
appointment on the 12
th to
find out
what my
biopsies showed if anything.
The
kids are busy too. Between
school work,
CCD for
Kolbe and baseball we are always on the go. It is good though. The kids are doing great i
n school.
Kolbe loves
CCD and is excited to
make his Firs
t Reconciliation and First Communion
this year. Mike
y and RJ are both
thriving in
baseball and love
their new teams. Though they are no winning much the
y are learning and that is key. Austin is
super busy with school work
and hockey. He is finding that social time is very limited
because he is
so busy. Things are going well and many scouts from colleges, National Team Development Program, and the
OHL are avidly watching him this year.
I am overwhelmed
lately and feeling very
alone and stressed. It is hard
sometimes to
understand why things happen and why they seem to be continual for us. I
know God allows suffering
because He loves us
and that He loves me - it is just hard to swallow it at times. I am tired of the stress, lack of
money, lack of stability, the fear of how we are going to make it etc. I am sad an
d have been thinking about the fact
that we may be done having babies. I
know we are blessed wit
h the wonderful kids we
have yet we
want more. Now is
obviously not the best time but I have found myself missing the babies I have lost
over the past year and a half. I find that my heart and arms feel so empty at times. Well it
is just where I am right now - sad, lonely,
stressed,
a little frightened and tired of
it all. I love God and I know He is caring for us it is just hard - I am human after all.
I hope
life is treating everyone well
and will be back soon.....